Archive | August, 2013

Monday Blues

6 Aug

Two of my friends are dealing with a cancer diagnosis this week. Both had biopsies last week and both went through the wait only to hear bad news. Those days are so hard, the waiting and the finding out and the seeming finality of it all. There is no going back to before you found out. There is no going back to the minutes before – to that space and time – where you still believed and hoped and prayed that what looms as your worst nightmare does not come true. I remember that vividly. I remember desperately not wanting to have to give my parents the news that their daughter had cancer.

This past week, while my friends waited for results, I prayed and hoped that their news would be good. I told them what many told me when I was waiting for results: “that often it is nothing”

I wanted to believe that in 2009 – despite the fact that my mammogram report stated: “biopsy to confirm malignancy”

I still hung onto hope, after reading those words, that I would somehow escape it. And this past week, I hoped and prayed for my friends that it would be nothing. Sadly, this was not to be. Now there is more waiting for them and more praying for good news within the bad. Good news now would be to find out that their cancers are not advanced, that it is treatable and that the treatment required will not be harrowing.

So this week is tough. Tough to know that people I care about are suffering and tough to know that there is nothing I can do to really relieve any of it for them.

Please pray for my friends and for their families.

Cancer sucks.

Love and peace,

Lisa