Archive | May, 2011

Good results on scans . . .

3 May

I received good scan results today. The bone scan results came back: NED – “No Evidence of Disease”. The chest CT came back “stable”, no significant changes. So . . . all is well. I am well.

I am, to say the least, relieved. My family is relieved. I am so grateful. I feel very, very lucky.

And, sadly, today I learned that The Carcinista passed away. Here is a link to her blog:

Her last post bravely details her decision to decline further treatment.

I have followed her story via her blog. She was a “two and a half time” ovarian cancer survivor. She was an inspiring woman, who continues to inspire me and will continue to inspire many. I did not know her in person. But, reading her words made me feel like I knew her a bit. I am sad for her family today and sad that she is no longer here, blogging, laughing, crying, breathing, being a mom to her boys.

Thank you to everyone for your prayers and positive vibes and your messages. It means so much to me.

Please send your positive energy and prayers out to her family today. Rest in peace Sara.

Love and peace,


Crazy making . . .

3 May

I am still waiting on scan results. I had the scans a week ago. My oncologist ordered the scans nearly a month ago. I have been in a fog, limbo, haze, etc. ever since. I can’t sleep, can’t keep much of anything straight lately. Let’s see . . . I ran out of gas (got stranded) last week, lost my keys on multiple occasions, locked myself out of my house several times, have driven to the store only to discover I do not have my wallet, have attempted to refrigerate items that do not require refrigeration, have forgotten to pay bills, etc.

I know . . . we have all done some of these things. But, this is different. This is all happening seemingly constantly, throughout each day. It has been going on for weeks. Those around me most have definitely taken notice and are concerned (or perhaps just really annoyed). I think my “out-of-it-ness” is probably due to stress (waiting for the scans to be approved, having the scans, waiting for the results) and lack of sleep.

So, I am back to list making like I had to do constantly during my treatment induced fog. The trouble is that you can make a list, but, it does you no good if you forget that you made a list. Ugh.

The waiting is crazy making. It is difficult to concentrate or focus on anything. I feel so adrift and not myself. But, things will become clear at some point and hopefully it will be good.

My Mom and Dad are having a really hard time with the waiting also. This is so hard on them.

Thank you for your messages, continued prayers and positive thoughts. Please keep my parents in your prayers too.

Love and peace,