Still awake, what else is new :) . . .

It is 2:45 am and I am still awake, just can’t sleep. I hope to sleep soon, I really hope to sleep soon.

I am hungry, didn’t really have dinner tonight, I know, stupid. But, I wasn’t feeling well, didn’t feel up to making anything and didn’t feel up to going out. I’m supposed to do a fasting blood test tomorrow, along with my regular blood work that I am supposed to get done. But, I am not sure I can hold out now, from eating something that is . . . what was I thinking, skipping dinner.

I guess if I eat now, I can get the blood work done the following day, just wanted to get it done sooner.

Especially since there is a chance that my surgery could be earlier than planned. I am just in limbo about that. Hated telling my parents that I could potentially have to have surgery as soon as this weekend and that I won’t know until Thursday when I see my surgeon.

This seems nuts. I don’t know anyone else that has had things go this way, I mean other breast cancer patients that I know who have had reconstructive surgeries.

Well, it is what it is.

And, right now, I am super hungry . . . nope, I am not going to be able to wait until 9:00 am to eat. So, I guess my blood work will have to wait until Wednesday.

I am rambling . . . and really about nothing in particular. I guess i am just frustrated. I am in physical pain, I can’t sleep and I don’t know what is happening this week.

I can’t do anything about it. All I can do is wait it out.

Well, maybe I will be able to get some sleep soon.

L.