Monday Chores . . .

12 Apr

I have a lot to do today. Phone calls to square away authorizations for CT scans. You know what? I can’t even write about it. No point in it. I have a hard time even saying the word cancer anymore, let alone, typing it. I think about how I describe the diagnosis to people before I speak and do my best to always talk about it in the past tense. As if somehow I can linguistically make it go away, or, at least distance myself from it, paint a different picture for myself – the picture I want – that it is always in the past tense.

Now, I am faced with waiting to find out if those words ring true . . . past tense. Obviously, that is my hope, as it will always be, every time I schedule these tests, have these tests and wait for the results.

A very dear friend of mine told me that he lives in “chunks of time”, that is, time in between his scans. I can understand that now.

Please continue to keep me in your prayers, I greatly appreciate your prayers.

Love and peace,


4 Responses to “Monday Chores . . .”

  1. Sandy Gougis April 12, 2010 at 9:52 AM #

    This weekend I saw my cousin Joan, who is 5 or 6 years out from breast cancer. Other than a joke she cracked about how she saw the family resemblance to her grandfather while she was bald, you’d have no idea she had ever had cancer. Past tense.

    Our attitudes are so important to our health. You just keep on saying it in the past tense. When I tell people about you these days, I say, “My friend had breast cancer, but she’s healthy now.”

    Love ya,

  2. cancerfree2b April 12, 2010 at 9:56 AM #


    Thank you Sandy. And congratulations to Joan, that is wonderful.

    Love you too,

  3. Jennifer April 12, 2010 at 11:31 AM #

    I truly believe that a person’s attitude and mindset has a tremendous impact on their well-being. I can’t imagine anyone more dedicated and committed to being well than you are. Past tense? Damn straight! 😉

    Love (and admire) you,

    • cancerfree2b April 12, 2010 at 9:19 PM #

      Thank you Jennifer,

      I love and admire you too!
      Thank you for your continued prayers too, I greatly appreciate it.


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