Reflections . . .

27 Dec

This was my third, cancer-free Christmas. Cancer free. That is something.

Every day is something new and amazing really, if I want it to be. And I guess that is the reason I am writing today. There are some things that I have lost to cancer (besides the obvious, which would be my breasts and my peace of mind). One of the losses, which is not necessarily a bad thing, is my patience for all things petty. I don’t know that I ever had tremendous patience for petty things. But, now, post cancer – post the days that were continually hijacked by pain, exhaustion, chemo, radiation and surgeries – I simply have lost my patience for, well . . . stupid, petty things. I have a very hard time with losing time or having wasted time.

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This is where I spent Christmas morning, watching and listening to the ocean and enjoying a beautiful, sunny morning. So grateful for those moments on the beach alone and so grateful to have my family come and join me on Christmas day :)

An example would be time spent arguing (especially arguing over something stupid). I marvel at how upset people can become over getting cut off on the freeway, or not having something go their way, or simply having to do something that they were not planning on having to do. My goodness. This past week has been such an eye opener for me.  I am so grateful for so many things, and I guess, I just can’t sweat the small stuff . . . it is amazing to me at what can throw someone’s day off, or make it “miserable” or bad. I know that it is all relative. But, really, if you have your health, you have SO much, so much.

I never thought that I took my life, my friends, my family, music, or a beautiful day for granted prior to cancer. And, I did not need cancer to see or to appreciate the beauty and love of my friends, family or nature. That being said, my wish is for another cancer free year (for all of us) and that we all slow down a bit, take life a little less seriously (which really means taking life seriously I think – as in enjoying life, not getting upset over minor things and recognizing that some things are truly minor).

I have made it a point to take more time out for the things that I enjoy. They do say that you should do what you love. I wonder if I had done more of that if I would have ever been sick. Who knows. I am not one to blame the cancer patient for getting cancer. But, I do know that I could have chosen to have a bit less stress in my life in the years preceding my diagnosis. And, as someone who would like to think that I have even an ounce of control over my health outcome – the idea of stress reduction (and that I can actively do something about that) perhaps helping prevent a recurrence is appealing to me.

So, that is my ramble for today and a bit of a New Year’s resolution too (something that I actually started several months ago) and that is to seek joy, seek love, seek peace.

Wishing you all the same.

Much love and gratitude,

Lisa

10 Responses to “Reflections . . .”

  1. tw December 27, 2013 at 4:56 PM #

    Like you I don’t understand the pettiness or associated unpleasantness that often accompanies it. I think my tolerance was never that good but it’s virtually non-existent now. Some people might see that as lacking understanding or awareness – I think its because cancer makes us understand all too clearly just how precious time is and how ridiculous it is to waste it on trivia. I wish you a cancer free future and a life less stressful than before.

  2. Bonnie December 27, 2013 at 6:28 PM #

    Oh this is my first Christmas Cancer free. I hope there will be many many more. but that being said I totally understand not being able to deal with the pettiness of the small stuff. I went by a cross on the freeway near my home; where someone cut off a driver last year and killed him. Please….people get a grip. Life will kill you fast enough without having to take another’s life and waste yours and hurt your family.
    Be kind to one another. and I am not going to stress over the small stuff. I took my social security early this year at 62 (in March) and I don’t regret it at all. I do not need any more money. I want time. Time is what I want in my stocking Santa. :) Time and nothing more.

  3. sally peck December 27, 2013 at 11:35 PM #

    Lisa, may you have an abundance of joy, love and peace every day and be cancer free for years and years and many more years!

    • cancerfree2b January 14, 2014 at 12:33 AM #

      Dear Aunt Sally,
      Thank you. I hope you had a wonderful Christmas and that you too have an abundance of joy, love and peace every day! Much love to you!
      Lisa

  4. Facing Cancer Together December 28, 2013 at 8:07 AM #

    Merry Christmas to you and a happy new year. Cheers to letting go of the petty things. ~Catherine

    • cancerfree2b January 14, 2014 at 12:32 AM #

      A belated Merry Christmas to you too! And, a very Happy New Year! XO
      Lisa

  5. The Presents of Presence December 28, 2013 at 9:24 AM #

    God Bless You Lisa! Congrats on 3 years ~ I am coming up on my diagnosaversary which is New Year’s Eve ~ 12 years ago I was diagnosed. Keep enjoying the presents of presence every moment of your life! May you enjoy a lifetime cancer free! xo

    • cancerfree2b January 14, 2014 at 12:32 AM #

      Congratulations to you too!!!! Very happy for you!!! Happy New Year! XO
      Lisa

  6. Victoria December 29, 2013 at 2:42 AM #

    Oh do I relate to that. The complaints about co-workers, family members, I just can’t listen to it any more. I find that I excuse myself from all sorts of conversations that just feel icky and wreak havoc with my serenity. And I’ve decided that my serenity is a priority. :-)
    Can’t change people, places or things but we can write, plant trees, read good books, and bounce ideas off interesting people. All the best to you for 2014.

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